REWARDS!

Treasure chest with gold coins by Garry Gay

Treasure chest with gold coins by Garry Gay

Oh yes, rewards! How we all crave them. Awards, prizes, contracts etc, they’re all pretty grand. Gold coins are not to be sneezed at either, but the other day I received a reward that was worth even more than all of these – words of connection and thanks from a reader. To know that Thrill Seekers is still out there connecting with people and even, most wonderfully of all, reflecting their own experiences is more valuable than gold (though of course that would be nice too!)

Here’s what Harry had to say.

Great read! I had more than a few knock-about friends growing up and the language and the descriptions, the play, the drink, the smoke, the drugs, the sex – you write just as it was – just as it is. Thanks, Harry

It really made my day, especially as it was one of the first messages I received after my return from overseas. Thanks Harry.

As an emerging writer the financial rewards may not be great, which makes messages from readers even more precious. I find rewards in other ways too – writing the end of that scene that’s been bugging me, writing something unexpected, and beautiful, so beautiful it doesn’t feel like it’s come from me. The satisfaction of writing the last few words of a long work and in that split second feeling that it is great (until the morning anyway!).

What do you find rewarding about your art or writing practice? What, besides money, keeps you going?

BACKTRACK!

Backtrack lads

Backtrack lads


Recently, I travelled to Armidale on the New England Tablelands of New South Wales to visit the Backtrack school for kids who don’t fit the system.

Backtrack is an organisation that does more than its fair share empowering young people who will otherwise end up on the wrong side of the law. I first learnt of this organisation through my friend Helena Pastor’s work with them as she wrote her forthcoming memoir. She had turned up at their shed every Sunday with a tray of home-baked brownies to help young men complete welding projects as part of the Iron Men Welders scheme.

Since these small beginnings, Backtrack has gone on to host a number of other projects including Paws Up, an award-winning dog jumping squad, Imagine This incorporating the Backtrack school, and Aglads, a farming based initiative. Backtrack’s main mover and shaker, the unstoppable Bernie Shakeshaft, is now at the head of a large group of youth workers, artists in residence (including Helena who is writer in residence) and others, providing employment for a number of ex-clients who have learned to shine under his tutelage.

It was an honour to be invited to their classroom and meet the teachers, Simmo and Helena, and their students. Trey, otherwise known as Ducky, jumped up and shook my hand with a warm smile so I felt welcomed straight away. Freddie, Brady, Hayden, Norm, and Marshall, known as Sheriff for obvious reasons, all introduced themselves and Fred even got up and did some yoga with me. Although he wouldn’t attempt the splits – my ultimate party trick.

We gathered in the office where it was warmer and the couches were comfier and I read “Voices” from Thrill Seekers to them. At first, I was nervous. Only the week before these guys had told their teachers they didn’t like being read to like babies, so I was worried I wouldn’t hold their attention. However, a minute into my reading, I looked up and saw that the phones had been put away, the fidgeting had stopped, and all eyes were on me.

I hadn’t read “Voices” aloud for a long time and was caught off guard by the power of the emotional ending, especially as this story is so closely based on my own experiences. My voice broke and I thought I was going to cry in front of these tough guys. But you know what? They were right there with me. They KNEW how I’d felt. After I’d finished, we all had a chat about ganja and booze and other drugs and freaking out – what to do if someone you know is losing it, or you’re losing it yourself. They’d lived a lot, these young men, and had some great ideas on how to turn things around.

I’d brought along books and signed a copy for each of them. Never was I so glad to give books away, they were so warmly received. I was even happier when some of them sat down straight away and started reading. It was hugely gratifying to see my book being read by the boys who had lived similar stories – who really knew what it was about.

But that wasn’t the highlight of my visit. That came later when we were all helping Sally cook up a delicious lunch of minestrone and chicken fried rice. As we sat in the office chopping veggies, Simmo got out his guitar and we all sang along to Lean on Me by Bill Withers. “Lean on me, when you’re not strong. I’ll be your friend; I’ll help you carry on.”And bugger me but I almost cried again, it was so beautiful. My brother Matty would have been right at home with that bunch of talented young men. Just like I was. Thank you boys! Thank you Backtrack for being there for them.

Edwina and Sheriff

Edwina and Sheriff


Thrill Seekers

Thrill Seekers